Tina................... I am back.............only because you asked.
It warms me to know that you wanted this, although you never really asked me why I stopped writing. I guess, at the end of the day........it was all about that little bit of attention......... that little bit of curiosity......... that little urge to know how much more attention I could shower on you.
I was never too far away from this blog......... it has been instrumental in me laying bare my heart. It helped me deal with a lot of issues I would have otherwise struggled to deal with. But most importantly, this blog helped me reach out deep into you.
We have been dealing with matters of the heart and mind all along but lately your heart has been shining through to me and that brings me a lot of peace. There has been a massive shift in the way you have started to express yourself to me, in a way you never did earlier. Maybe you loved me earlier too, but always held yourself back because I was this brooding, intensely in love, passionately "everything Tina" guy and you had your own issues to handle.
It would be fair to say that a newer Tina has been emerging with every conversation. The walls have been torn down and you are baring yourself to me like never before and I want more of it, I want it absolutely raw, uncut, uncensored. I just want to see more of the person I am so deeply in love with that ageing alone does not seem daunting as I have your thoughts for company although I know your opinion on this topic.
By the way baby, Happy 2nd Anniversary of our connection. I know I am late by about 3 months but I think it makes more sense now than it would have had I said it back on 14th Nov 2013. In fact , the connection has been on since 1st Jan 2002 when we first acknowledged our feelings for each other but then everything got lost in time.
I told you this evening that I saw a dream today with my eyes open.......
I saw that I am standing in an open kitchen leaning against the counter wearing a white shirt, blue jeans with a lot of light shining through the window. And what am I doing......? Well... I am watching a 12 year old Tina who has just returned from school and is elaborately describing her day to her mother in as animated a fashion as possible. And then I close my eyes and I see that the same Tina is now grown up to the Tina I know now and is still describing her work day with as much zest, but this time her mother and I are part of her dining table discussion.
Oh baby..... I want to be there with you..... I miss you!!!!
It warms me to know that you wanted this, although you never really asked me why I stopped writing. I guess, at the end of the day........it was all about that little bit of attention......... that little bit of curiosity......... that little urge to know how much more attention I could shower on you.
I was never too far away from this blog......... it has been instrumental in me laying bare my heart. It helped me deal with a lot of issues I would have otherwise struggled to deal with. But most importantly, this blog helped me reach out deep into you.
We have been dealing with matters of the heart and mind all along but lately your heart has been shining through to me and that brings me a lot of peace. There has been a massive shift in the way you have started to express yourself to me, in a way you never did earlier. Maybe you loved me earlier too, but always held yourself back because I was this brooding, intensely in love, passionately "everything Tina" guy and you had your own issues to handle.
It would be fair to say that a newer Tina has been emerging with every conversation. The walls have been torn down and you are baring yourself to me like never before and I want more of it, I want it absolutely raw, uncut, uncensored. I just want to see more of the person I am so deeply in love with that ageing alone does not seem daunting as I have your thoughts for company although I know your opinion on this topic.
By the way baby, Happy 2nd Anniversary of our connection. I know I am late by about 3 months but I think it makes more sense now than it would have had I said it back on 14th Nov 2013. In fact , the connection has been on since 1st Jan 2002 when we first acknowledged our feelings for each other but then everything got lost in time.
I told you this evening that I saw a dream today with my eyes open.......
I saw that I am standing in an open kitchen leaning against the counter wearing a white shirt, blue jeans with a lot of light shining through the window. And what am I doing......? Well... I am watching a 12 year old Tina who has just returned from school and is elaborately describing her day to her mother in as animated a fashion as possible. And then I close my eyes and I see that the same Tina is now grown up to the Tina I know now and is still describing her work day with as much zest, but this time her mother and I are part of her dining table discussion.
Oh baby..... I want to be there with you..... I miss you!!!!
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