14-02-2012

Its been 6 years since I last wished someone from the bottom of my heart, I have had friends wish me on this day since 2006 but I have never been able to wish them back, or in rare cases when I did (I don't quite remember though), it was for being polite as they must have been really important friends.

But today was different, I was nervous.

I was at work, busy as hell and yet this thought popped up in my head. My mind kept hopping to Tina. I havent left any stone unturned in expressing how I feel about her, at least in words, yet I wanted her to know that she has been on my mind all day today. I wish I could have done more than just think about her, so what if we are miles apart. I actually wanted to send her a bouquet. But then I realized, what if I get her into trouble. My heart kept saying, do it, order online and have it delivered, but my mind kept stopping me.

For once, I listened to my mind and not my heart. Sorry Tina.... I really wish I could give you Roses and Baby Breaths today :(

But I was in for a pleasant surprise, Tina wished me :) :) :).

I don't know how much of a big deal was it to her, but it was a big deal for me. In a split second, the nervousness disappeared, and it was replaced with a smile on my face.

She beat me to it....and I loved being beaten today

As Quintilian once said "While we ponder when to begin, it becomes too late to do".... how I loved being late today :)

I told Tina the other day "If sitting idle makes me think of you, I'd rather sit idle all the time". I'd like to think I made her blush with that remark.

And then I told her what was going through my head, I said

"You know....I can't help but get this thought out of my head. So have to say it.


Its just a hearts desire...to take you out, not to a mall, not to a pub, not to a movie, not to bed...... but to someplace where I can be just with you. Talk to you, know you more than what I knew you 10 years ago.


Know the Tina more than ever before and ever again"

I miss you.......