Tina......
I was just wondering...... if the feeling between us is mutual. Maybe I speak out and you don't...... well I know you don't because you do not want to build a castle in thin air. I really do not blame you for that though. But having said that, I choose to go with the flow. Remember.......!!! ONE LIFE.
So why do I pick this topic of "Feelings"....... ?
I ask myself..... what is it about Tina that drives me to relegate everything else to the back room and trash all possible theories of why the relationship is not bound to work? You know, for all practical purposes....and to ensure sensitivity towards the ones already attached to our lives...... it would be "Practical" to stay away from each other. That is probably the only reason why the theories of us not being able to be one would apply. But then the impact of this theory is enormous, the impact on the sensitivity of those attached is enormous and I will be the first one to reluctantly accept it.
Having said that, either it is my thick skull or the absolute state of love paralysis when I think about you, that it makes me want to take on any situation that is thrown at me if the end result is going to be having you and your little one permanently in my life. How things would pan out if you were to be mine is something that I am unable picture....... but one feeling is certain..... that there would be no scope of disappointment baby. I will have this willingness to try and work out every problem to ensure our happiness.
You maybe wondering why am I talking about all this..... since this is not the first time we are talking about it. But then you know me, when it comes to you....... nothing stays in. I loved a line a friend of mine recently spoke..... when she got to know about you and I being together and when she spoke about the futility of this effort that I was making and the thread of hope that I was clinging onto.... she said..... "Only Tina could have made you risk breaking your heart once again." and that she saw a man "Who sleeps, eats and breathes Tina"
Is that a bad thing? Am i losing my mind?
Thinking about you revitalizes me, hearing your voice rejuvenates me and your expression of love sends me to the moon and back.
You know..... finding a life partner is not a tough thing..... you found yours and i will find mine if i go looking for one...... but finding a mate for life....the one that would complete you at all levels, emotional...physical.... spiritual...at worldly and not so worldly levels..... that is what I am chasing Tina..... because in you...I see that fulfillment.
Do i make any sense???? I don't know....but its all clear in mind though.
I am in love with you.
Muah!!!!
I was just wondering...... if the feeling between us is mutual. Maybe I speak out and you don't...... well I know you don't because you do not want to build a castle in thin air. I really do not blame you for that though. But having said that, I choose to go with the flow. Remember.......!!! ONE LIFE.
So why do I pick this topic of "Feelings"....... ?
I ask myself..... what is it about Tina that drives me to relegate everything else to the back room and trash all possible theories of why the relationship is not bound to work? You know, for all practical purposes....and to ensure sensitivity towards the ones already attached to our lives...... it would be "Practical" to stay away from each other. That is probably the only reason why the theories of us not being able to be one would apply. But then the impact of this theory is enormous, the impact on the sensitivity of those attached is enormous and I will be the first one to reluctantly accept it.
Having said that, either it is my thick skull or the absolute state of love paralysis when I think about you, that it makes me want to take on any situation that is thrown at me if the end result is going to be having you and your little one permanently in my life. How things would pan out if you were to be mine is something that I am unable picture....... but one feeling is certain..... that there would be no scope of disappointment baby. I will have this willingness to try and work out every problem to ensure our happiness.
You maybe wondering why am I talking about all this..... since this is not the first time we are talking about it. But then you know me, when it comes to you....... nothing stays in. I loved a line a friend of mine recently spoke..... when she got to know about you and I being together and when she spoke about the futility of this effort that I was making and the thread of hope that I was clinging onto.... she said..... "Only Tina could have made you risk breaking your heart once again." and that she saw a man "Who sleeps, eats and breathes Tina"
Is that a bad thing? Am i losing my mind?
Thinking about you revitalizes me, hearing your voice rejuvenates me and your expression of love sends me to the moon and back.
You know..... finding a life partner is not a tough thing..... you found yours and i will find mine if i go looking for one...... but finding a mate for life....the one that would complete you at all levels, emotional...physical.... spiritual...at worldly and not so worldly levels..... that is what I am chasing Tina..... because in you...I see that fulfillment.
Do i make any sense???? I don't know....but its all clear in mind though.
I am in love with you.
Muah!!!!
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